Wendy Chisholm

Stairs make the building inaccessible, not the wheelchair. Co-author of Universal Design for Web Applications. Strategist for Microsoft. @wendyabc at twitter.

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Towards the light

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In preparation for Burning Man 2013, I printed 100 copies of a book of poetry and short stories that I had written during the previous 10 years. In the last few weeks, I’ve been drafting blog posts to start sharing those poems as well as new ones. I had hoped to finish a poem about tenacity before the GAAD event on Thursday, but depression was the theme of the week and I wasn’t feeling tenacious.

This week’s playlist is called “Tenacity.” It starts with Tenacious D and meanders through geeky, funny songs because when I need to feel more tenacious, I turn to comedy.

I cried at work on Wednesday because I was feeling afraid and deflated. I cried at home on Thursday because Chris Cornell died. I cried at the Space Needle on Friday after visiting the KEXP memorial, listening to Soundgarden, standing in the sun, feeling the warmth and relief of this rainy winter letting go. I cried this morning in bed listening to Chris sing Whitney Houston’s, “I will always love you” and reading that he committed suicide using an exercise band and a carabiner.

Depression lies.”

And I remembered this poem that I wrote 27 December 2012.

Towards the light

Depression
  muffles
  cocoons
  pads
  encapsulates
Hazy
  unclear
  murky
Heavy
  silent
  still
Depths
  darkness
  mutes

The sun shines
  the weight
  pulls me down
  unable to stretch
  unable to grow
  towards the light

Depression
  is hibernation
  growing roots
  in winter

Storing up
  for the burst of growth
  in Spring

Preparing the systems
  solidifying
  grounding
  composting

Readying me
for the eyes
  the sun
  the warmth

For joy will be grounded
  in the earth
  as it reaches
  for the sun.

 

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May 20th, 2017 at 10:14 am