wendy A process not a switch.
My feelings cairns on the path.
I walk past
cycle back
I’m on the right track
until next time.
The way blends into the landscape
and I wonder how I walked past
something so obvious.
Distracted distractions blind me
to the obvious signs
until I stumble
fall
and the pain brings me back.
One day.
Please help me
sit, pause, wait
until the next step is clear
less backtracking.
Is less scenery?
Is it necessary?
The pain isn’t so bad
it’s the circles and self-loathing.
With gratitude the circles are spirals
and the rain is cleansing.
My job is to feel.
I am the Universe having a human experience.
Why would I choose this?
Because humans feel
awe
gratitude
joy
THRIVE not only survive…
and destroy everything.
And the rain is oppressive and
circles are tedious.
2 December 2021